Goodbye 2012

    Goodbye 2012, you brought me a mixture of things good and bad. You started out really bad, since two weeks after you came my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. The worst thing that happened that year. I had to make a decision between my family and my education. I wanted to be there for my mom. She always takes out care of me when im sick, and it was my turn to take care of her, so i dropped out.

  Spent long days and nights at the hospital after mom got her surgery. And spent most of my time taking care of her when she came home. Making sure she was alright and cleaning the house became my job. Got my heart broken a few months later, and lost all of my friends.

   When my mom started getting better i decided i wanted to go back to school. I wanted to make something out of myself, and get my diploma. So i enrolled back in and soon after became a student of Charlestown High School.

    Just when things started to getting better for me. I got a call from my brother telling me my dad was at the hospital. After my mom getting sick, i didnt know if i could handle my dad being sick too. When we got to the hospital nobody knew what was wrong with my dad. Finally when i got to see him, we found out what was wrong with him.He had two kidney stones. And after a couple days, thank god my dad was feeling better. It was weird seeing him in the hospital bed in pain, he's always so strong. I had never seen him like that before and after those days, i never wanna see him like that again.

   Things in my life were good again. Which i am grateful for, because in Connecticut people werent as lucky. There was a shooting in an elementary school where 20 children and 6 adults had their lives taken away from them.2012 taught me many lessons. And changed me alot, ive learned to appretiate my family and the things i have much more. I became more motivated and determined to get my diploma and to do things for myself, without depending on anyone.

  Im happy that 2013 is here though, I cant wait for my birthday next month. Im going to be turning 18 years old. I plan on making many changes this year. Ive applied for a job at a few stores, getting a job is the first thing on my list of resolutions.And im also trying real hard not to miss anymore days of school. So goodbye 2012, thanks for all the life lessons,memories and welcome new beginnings, smiles, less sadness, new experiences, and happiness.

Female / Male Gender Roles

         So this whole gender roles thing makes me kind of mad. i don't believe in most of them, but i guess that's what society sort of engraved in our heads. that men should be strong and manly and women should be more submissive and stuff. And in certain ways its true, some women are more sensitive then men but that doesn't mean anything, there are sensitive men out there. Not everyone is the same, i know a few girls that aren't girly and some men that aren't manly. I think it all depends on how you were raised and things you were told when you were a child. 

      In my case, i was taught to play with dolls and to be polite because "your a lady" and you're suppose to act a certain way. And for my brother things were different and when i asked my parents why their answer always was "because he's a boy" . Growing up he was allowed to stay out late and i till this very day am not allowed to stay out later then maybe 10pm. He has more freedom then i do and its always been that way as unfair as it sounds.

   All of this really makes me wonder "who made these things up?" and "how would things be if they didn't exist?" If you ask me they would be really different, and that's why when i'm older and have kids i wont do these "gender roles". Because in my eyes if i have a son and hes playing with a doll it doesn't make him anything, and i don't find anything wrong with that.Just like if i had a daughter and she wanted to be a football player or something, i would support her.